When my life began to shatter, I took out my mobile and went through my contacts list. Guess what, I have nobody to cry to.
1.I have a family who loves me like we have no next birth.
2.I have a handful amount of friends who genuinely care for me.
3.I have a Lab who will somehow get the sad aura and start emo-ing for me.
However when I feel like just opening up and crying, I realized that I have zero person.I even brought myself to text the guy who means so much to me. But then it’s 1.30 a.m. and he must be fast asleep. I don’t have anyone to complain to!!
I’ve grown up building this wall around me and it’s like a sin to break it myself. Now all I can do is blog and hope I’ll get the remedy soon.
Of all times, NOW??? With my CA just 10 days away and I’m not even half prepared, I know this time I screwed it up for real. Damn! I never got myself into so much of physical pain before. Seriously I’m freaked out and scared like hell.
Everything happens for a reason. Yes. I still choose to believe in it. Again I realized how noble friends god has given me here. Des Jrmy Ebby and Thivy are just too good to be true. They know it’s contagious yet they brought me to clinic. Utter sweetness. But too bad I need more time to appreciate their sweetness cuz I’m just freaked out like hell. Amen.
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March 26, 2009 at 2:58 am
Hey, girl be strong k..Its sad that I couldn’t of any help sooner..but i know that currently you are in good hands as your frens will take good care of you..hey girl, let it be 1 in the morning i’ll be there for you if you need me..but maybe you din know that or you din take me seriously.. just remember just as much as you want to see me happy, I too want to see you happy and successful..afterall, that are what frens are for.. Its never too late to start over with ya studies..put your mind to it and throw away that fear..as far as i know there is no such word as fear in your dictionary.. maybe you’re nervous..but i’m sure you’ll be able to overcome it my dear..i’ve always included you in my daily prayers and i’m sure god won’t let you down..
good luck girl..